Megan Time!

Today was a sad day. I thought today was going to be a relaxing Sunday after getting an extra hour in bed as the clocks went back. Yet I woke up to some sad news about Matthew Perry.  Of course there've been many celebrity deaths this year but this one is especially sad for me because I enjoy Friends and Chandler was one of my favourite characters because of his wit, his sarcasm and just his loveable personality. I’m aware that there was a major struggle going on behind the scenes with his addictions but he managed to pull through and get his life back on track. Which is why it’s so incredibly sad to hear of his passing.  It just goes to show that life is so unexpected and you can never really know what will happen which is why we all need to cherish each moment because you never fully know what’s going to happen. Count yourself lucky that the only thing you moan about is the weather because there are terrible things going on in the world like war, violence, addictions, mental...

Honestly, I've been single for many years and of course I've dated guys in the past. In fact this year, I got to experience my first boyfriend which is honestly an achievement because all the guys I dated in the past never wanted anything serious or just kept it very casual to the point where I sometimes question did it even happen? Are they even an ex? Anyway, I got to experience my very first official relationship for five happy months until it came to a sudden end. It sucks but that's life. I'm now constantly being reminded by other people that he wasn't the one for you or you'll find someone better and my personal favourite is there are plenty of fish in the same. I'm just going to say it right now, there's not plenty of fish out there. Majority of the fish want to keep it casual and the rest just completely ignore you and go for the easier targets.  Anyway, I've been single since May and it's got me thinking about whether I should go back to...

This year something new happened to me. It all began when I decided to try online dating again and I didn't really think too much of it. Eventually I met this guy and after talking for a month we met up then things just grew from there. Before you know it, we became officially boyfriend and girlfriend which if you've read my blog in the past will know is a huge milestone because I've never had a boyfriend. I've dated guys in the past but it never led to anything serious. Now from the title you may be able to tell that it didn't end well because we eventually parted ways. Now I'm not going to spill the tea as to why because that's between me and him but I will say it did affect me because I did catch feelings for him. Plus it was a weird feeling to go from talking to someone everyday and seeing them almost every week to nothing is a bit of a rollercoaster of emotion. It took me a bit of time to even get over it as sometimes the emotion just hit me and I felt ...

I thought I'd take this post as a little moment to have a catch up with guys as I have been absent these past four months and honestly so much has happened that I'm not really sure where to begin but I'll give it a go. I switched jobs and have gone for a complete career change. Now for privacy reasons, I'm not going to say where I actually work but let's just say it's not retail. Honestly though, I enjoyed working in retail and it was great but sometimes like with most jobs you do get some bad days. It has made me appreciate everyone working in customer service because they are just trying to earn a living and sometimes things go wrong. So be kind to retail workers. In fact, all customer service roles because that is a person behind that counter who is just trying to earn a living and you have no idea what they're going through. So before you make a comment saying "Oh they could have cheered up a bit" or "They are sitting there doing nothing....

One of the worst feelings in the world is getting dumped. Especially when it's so unexpected. Sometimes when you want a relationship to work, you at least try to work through any relationship issues you may have. At least you'd like to hope that would be the case. It might even show that they did care about you, but alas I wasn't so lucky. The worst thing to say though is to completely get friend zoned and say you can just be friends. Even more so when they don't even stick to that or even try to be friends with you. It sucks because he was the only person I was talking to on a daily basis and now I don't even have anybody messaging me unless they want something. I know it's been almost two months now since I got dumped (well it will be when this post goes up) but honestly it still hurts. Mainly because for the first time I thought he could be the one and to realise that he doesn't feel the same, does suck. I mean I do have to give him some credit because at...

Loneliness affects all of us in different ways. After this whole pandemic, more and more people have been feeling alone from not being able to see anyone to being home alone. Sometimes it can be upsetting, heart breaking and makes you wonder why you are alone, but it doesn't have to be this way. Being introverted, I do like my alone time, but I do get days where I feel alone sometimes. We all get lonely sometimes so that is why I thought I'd make this post and share my tips on what to do when you're alone or feeling lonely.  1. Get Outside Sometimes being cooped up in your home or your bedroom can emphasize the loneliness because you may start overthinking and suddenly things you would usually enjoy are not bringing any joy. Find your nearest park or woodland area and go for a walk. A few weeks ago I came across this beautiful park that I love to walk around and try to do on a daily basis. It honestly makes me feel so much better to just get out in the fresh air. There'...

Everyone has a secret. Sometimes big. Sometimes small. However big or small the secret is everyone has a secret/ Something that only they know or a select few know. I have many secrets and no this is not a tell all revealing post about every single secret I have. If I did that, I'd have to confront it with several people that may be not aware of those secrets and that might just make things incredibly awkward for me. Trust me my life is already an awkward mess and I don't want it to be any more awkward thank you.  I do want to share one secret I have though, although after this it may not be a secret anymore as anyone reading this will know and some of those people may even be people I know. Come to think of it I have no idea if any of my friends or family actually read my blog. I think I've had a couple say they have but they never really acknowledge it. I suppose it's because this is just a hobby and to be honest the less attention that I get the better for me because...

It's kind of weird, when I was younger I always thought life was meant to go a certain way. I used to think that when you're a teenager you get into a relationship and experience all your firsts. First kiss. First dates. First time. I remember being in school, developing several crushes on boys in the hopes that one day they'll notice me and ask me out. Let's just say that never happened and school was pretty lonely in that I never had a boyfriend.  I felt like the odd one out because it seemed like everyone had been in at least one relationship and there was me not even experiencing a first kiss. I thought there was something wrong with me. That's when I had a glimmer of hope. University. Going away, meeting new people and hearing about stories of students getting up to all sorts while in uni. It made me think that I'll be able to experience my firsts at least once in uni and perhaps even get into a relationship. Well, for the first two years nothing hap...

Getting your heart broken is one of the worst feelings in the world. One of the biggest struggles is actually getting over a heartbreak. Everyone experiences heartbreak differently. Whether it's losing someone to death or dealing with a one-sided love and getting cheated on, to your parents getting divorced. I can say I've been through a lot of heart aches in my life and I never really knew how to deal with them. I want to say I'm still over a few of them but the reality is I'm not. I always go back and think of all the what ifs. I'm an overthinker and it can be a struggle. I thought I'd make this post as a way to help each other out with dealing with a heartbreak. I know it's hard and I'm not saying all these tips will work for you but they might help you in dealing with your heartbreak. 1. It's okay to cry It's upsetting to get your heartbroken. Sometimes you just need to cry about it. That doesn't make you weak and it shows you care...

I've always wanted to receive a love letter. Ever since I watched Love Rosie and Pride & Prejudiced. I just wanted to receive a love letter. I just find handwritten letters beautiful. As I'm single, I doubt I'll receive a love letter anytime soon so I thought why not write myself a love letter. I feel like we all need a bit of self love in our lives so I recommend writing yourself a love letter. Here's mine: Dear Megan, You are doing really great now. You may not realise it but you are. You are a beautiful human and you don't need to change for anyone. You are a strong independent woman. Yes, you have gotten your heartbroken in the worst way possible by a guy you thought was the one and who understood you. However, he hurt you and it's his loss.  You have a heart of gold. You care so much that when things go wrong, you do break down but you get back up. You realise that you are worth it. You may not have a man in your life right now but you ha...

Nope this is not a review of the movie with the same name but if you are single then do go check it out because it is a fun feel good movie to watch. This is just a little post from yours truly on how to be single. As I've been single for pretty much 22 years of my life, I'm going to give you some tips and ticks on how the single life works and what you should do so let's get started. 1. It's okay to be single We live in a world where by the time you're an adult, you're supposed to find true love and get married in order to live a happy life. However, having been a child of divorced parents I've learnt that marriage is not forever. I know people can be happily married for years and years but I also know that marriage can lead to divorce. Just know it's okay to be single because you don't have to worry about the thought of divorce or that your significant other is cheating because you're already single. The only person you need to worry a...

To My Sixteen Year Old Self, Everything is going to be okay. You're probably freaking out because you're about to do your GCSEs and you're probably thinking that this is the most important year of your life. Well let's just say it is and it isn't. It may seem like there's so much pressure to do well in your GCSEs but really it shouldn't have to be. Let's just say as your twenty two year old self. Nobody has cared that I have a GCSE in English Language or Maths or Science. They don't really matter and a grade on a piece of paper does not define who you are. I wish I could say life gets so much easier as you get older and it doesn't. However, school will be over for you in two and a half years and trust me. You'll feel much happier when you've finished school. I suggested stop pining after the man of your dreams. You're not going to find him in school and you won't find him in university. I know you're going to develop a ...

2018 is finally over and now it's hello 2019. A part of me is glad that it's over because 2018 was a roller coaster of emotions for me. It did start great because for the first time in my life, I went on a date and a part of me hoped it would go somewhere and for a few weeks everything was great but of course all good things come to an end. Reality hit me hard and I realised it was never meant to be. Unfortunately being the hopeless romantic I was had hope which resulted in me being heartbroken. So yeah not the best part of 2018 and as much as I try to forget it, I always sit and wonder what if. Oh well. That's over with. Let's talk about something that was a major part of my 2018. University. My final year. It was several months of stress and panic over my dissertation and other assignments. Yet I put a lot of hard work into all my assignments and did the best I could do for them. Luckily this resulted in me graduating with a 2:1 grade in November which definite...