Megan Time!

You don't realise what it feels like to be stood up until it actually happens to you. Surprisingly, I've been stood up twice this year. Once in January and the second time was this month. The weird thing out of all of it was it wasn't my idea to meet up for a date, it was actually they're idea so to be stood up just felt weird because I couldn't really explain why it happened. Even the second time it happened, that was supposed to be a first date which was arranged the day before so it was very confusing to turn up for a date and he never showed up. Didn't even send a message. Just never turned up. It almost feels like the reason I've been stood up is because of me as it's happened twice to me this year and I'm still wondering why it happened. Both times we seemed to get along fine and the conversation flowed. Nothing happened to suggest why they would stand me up. I should also point out that it was two separate guys. Not the same guy because otherw...

Sometimes life does get you down and sometimes hit you unexpectedly that you just can't help but feel blue.  That's okay. We're all allowed to have off days. They happen. Sometimes when we least expect it as we could some news or find something out or something happened that caused us to feel blue. Oftentimes there's a reason for it and other times there's no reason for it.  We all have days where we just don't want to do a lot or we're feeling a little overwhelmed that our emotions are a little sensitive that even when the slightest thing goes wrong, we burst into tears. That's okay. It happens.  How do we overcome this feeling of being blue? One of the things is doing something you enjoy. One that really has helped me is scrapbooking. Just listening to the music and focusing on creating a new page in my scrapbook by putting different pieces together has really helped me. It's focusing my mind and even for a short time I can just relax by being crea...

Today was a sad day. I thought today was going to be a relaxing Sunday after getting an extra hour in bed as the clocks went back. Yet I woke up to some sad news about Matthew Perry.  Of course there've been many celebrity deaths this year but this one is especially sad for me because I enjoy Friends and Chandler was one of my favourite characters because of his wit, his sarcasm and just his loveable personality. I’m aware that there was a major struggle going on behind the scenes with his addictions but he managed to pull through and get his life back on track. Which is why it’s so incredibly sad to hear of his passing.  It just goes to show that life is so unexpected and you can never really know what will happen which is why we all need to cherish each moment because you never fully know what’s going to happen. Count yourself lucky that the only thing you moan about is the weather because there are terrible things going on in the world like war, violence, addictions, mental...

This year something new happened to me. It all began when I decided to try online dating again and I didn't really think too much of it. Eventually I met this guy and after talking for a month we met up then things just grew from there. Before you know it, we became officially boyfriend and girlfriend which if you've read my blog in the past will know is a huge milestone because I've never had a boyfriend. I've dated guys in the past but it never led to anything serious. Now from the title you may be able to tell that it didn't end well because we eventually parted ways. Now I'm not going to spill the tea as to why because that's between me and him but I will say it did affect me because I did catch feelings for him. Plus it was a weird feeling to go from talking to someone everyday and seeing them almost every week to nothing is a bit of a rollercoaster of emotion. It took me a bit of time to even get over it as sometimes the emotion just hit me and I felt ...

Christmas is supposed to be the happiest time of the year as there is jolly music playing, lots of treats to eat and time to spend with loved ones. However, there are those days where you reflect on things and have days where you feel down. Perhaps you're single and surrounded by happy couples wishing just once that could be you. Maybe the family is putting a lot of pressure this Xmas whether it's to visit, make sure everything is perfect or just be a real Scrooge about everything.  If you feel like you're on your own with these winter blues. You're not. Lots of people go through these days, weeks, or even months of just feeling down during this time of year. It's okay to not feel so great. Just remember you can spend Xmas however you choose. Who cares if you're not going to have a turkey roast on Xmas day. Break tradition and have a burger or pasta. Whatever your favourite dish is, have it on Xmas day. You don't have to have it with family, ask your friends...

One of the worst feelings in the world is getting dumped. Especially when it's so unexpected. Sometimes when you want a relationship to work, you at least try to work through any relationship issues you may have. At least you'd like to hope that would be the case. It might even show that they did care about you, but alas I wasn't so lucky. The worst thing to say though is to completely get friend zoned and say you can just be friends. Even more so when they don't even stick to that or even try to be friends with you. It sucks because he was the only person I was talking to on a daily basis and now I don't even have anybody messaging me unless they want something. I know it's been almost two months now since I got dumped (well it will be when this post goes up) but honestly it still hurts. Mainly because for the first time I thought he could be the one and to realise that he doesn't feel the same, does suck. I mean I do have to give him some credit because at...

Loneliness is one of those things many don't talk about enough. Mainly because those who are lonely don't have anyone to talk about it with. Hence the feeling of loneliness. It's difficult when you're an adult who is lonely to overcome that feeling of being alone. People say just make friends, but that's easier said than done. You're not forced to hang out with the same people every day like you are in school or even university. You can argue that you hang out with the same people in work every week but it's difficult because all you have in common is the workplace and it can be a struggle to arrange to meet up outside of work hours.  Something you can try is online dating to stop you from feeling lonely. In the three times in my life I've tried online dating, each time I thought they could be the one to fulfil that role of a boyfriend that I've never had but alas it was not the case as all three ended up giving up on me and never giving me that chan...

Everyone has a bad day. Whether we've had some upsetting news, been dumped or just our mental health has taken its toll for the worse. Whatever the reason for having a bad day is, we all sometimes struggle to turn it around so that is why I thought I'd make a list of five ways that you can do when you have a bad day to turn it around.  1. Have a movie day or binge watch a series Sometimes when you have a bad day, the best thing to do is to distract yourself from the sadness and what better way to do that than to get snuggled up and watch either your favourite movies (which always guarantee to make you happy) or binge watch a feel-good series or a new series that keeps you invested in every episode. This may not be a long term solution but for a short period of time, it will allow you to forget you're having a bad day and may even make you smile.  2. Go Outside  This may contradict the previous point but another way to turn a bad day around is to get outside whether it's...

We all have those days where we can't really explain how we're feeling.  It's neither good nor bad, it's just all a bit meh.  You find yourself overthinking every little thing in your life.  You may get the random feeling that everyone hates you for some reason yet there is no obvious thing you've done for them to hate you, or you haven't even had an argument. You just assume that everyone hates you for whatever reason.  It's a confusing feeling as you don't even know where you stand in your own life.  You may have regrets over things you have or haven't done.  It all comes down to feeling meh and you don't even know why you feel this way. Nothing can change your mood or cheer you up. You may end up staring into endless space or just trying to do something you usually enjoy then find yourself still feeling bored.  Either way, feeling meh is just easier to say than explaining what's really going on because you can't even put into words how...

Loneliness affects all of us in different ways. After this whole pandemic, more and more people have been feeling alone from not being able to see anyone to being home alone. Sometimes it can be upsetting, heart breaking and makes you wonder why you are alone, but it doesn't have to be this way. Being introverted, I do like my alone time, but I do get days where I feel alone sometimes. We all get lonely sometimes so that is why I thought I'd make this post and share my tips on what to do when you're alone or feeling lonely.  1. Get Outside Sometimes being cooped up in your home or your bedroom can emphasize the loneliness because you may start overthinking and suddenly things you would usually enjoy are not bringing any joy. Find your nearest park or woodland area and go for a walk. A few weeks ago I came across this beautiful park that I love to walk around and try to do on a daily basis. It honestly makes me feel so much better to just get out in the fresh air. There'...

Valentine's Day is kind of a weird day for me. I know it happens every year, but I always feel very emotional on this day and do whatever I can to distract myself from those emotions. Yet here I am. Spending my 24th year of being single on Valentine's Day. It does make you wonder when you've been single for so long, why are you single? The honest answer. I have no real idea. It's not like the universe has given me an answer. I'm not sure I'd be able to cope with a real answer to that question. I can think of reasons why, but they've not been confirmed.  As much as I don't mind being single. Not having to share a bed or food. Not having to worry what my partner is thinking or doing. It's just me. Yet there's so many reasons why I wish I did have someone. For starters I would love to go on an actual date. I've never had a proper date before, and it would be nice just to know what it's like. I wouldn't want anything fancy. Just something...

Change is a big thing and it will happen to all of us. This year we had to make some big changes to our normality. For a long period of time we couldn't leave the house unless it was essential. We had to start keeping two metres apart and queuing to get into a shop. We couldn't even go out to a restaurant to have a meal or watch a movie in the cinema. Schools had to close, some people weren't allowed to work, essential workers were put under more stress than ever before because of this pandemic. I think we all hoped things would be back to normal by now and while things are slowly going back to normal, there's still fears that we're not over this yet. Of course change can affect us differently as we get older our bodies and way of thinking changes. How we feel about things soon change but is there a right or wrong way to deal with change. I think one of the biggest things you should do when it comes to change is to learn to accept it. The world isn't pic...

Mental Health is important and so is having someone to listen to you. If you're feeling down then I want to let you know that you can always talk to me. I know I'm most likely a stranger to you but I'm a very good listener. I've always been the listener rather than the talker so if you're struggling it's better to talk about it than keep it bottled up. Talk to a friend, a parent, a sibling, a teacher, an uncle, an aunt. Anyone. You can always talk to me privately through email or a direct message on social media. I'll have a chat with you if you're struggling. Maybe if you don't trust this blogger then you can always turn to other places that will talk to you. Samaritans is a good place to start:  https://www.samaritans.org/ You can call them, email them, write them a letter or even in person. They can help you if you're struggling. Even if you think the problem is a little thing or a big thing. They can and will help you. Everybody ...

Hi all, You may or may not have noticed but I haven't made a blog post since the beginning of January and it is now February. I decided to take a small break from blogging due to personal reasons. Unfortunately my 2020 did not get off to a great start as my Granddad passed way on the 5th January. It has been hard and upsetting to deal with so that's why I haven't been blogging. I figured I should just focus on myself and my family while we deal with this which helped so much. At times like this you do have to stick together. Of course, I will miss my Granddad so much but I know he is at peace and in a better place now. Anyway, I thought I'd give you guys this little life update and just let you know where I've been. I am back now and ready to blog again for you guys because I have missed it. I've been doing a lot of planning and preparation for this year so hopefully now things will get better. That's all I have to say for now but thank you for ta...

Everyone has had a bad day. They can be a regular occurrence or once a month. However often you have a bad day, I'm here to help. I've got a few tips to help you so when you do have a bad day then you'll have a plan on what to do. 1. Listen to some music I don't know what it is but there's a song for every mood. Sometimes the lyrics can relate so much to you and it feels like the song was written for you. I don't about you but listening to music always makes me feel better. Whether it's listening to some absolute banging tunes where I feel like dancing to my hearts content or it's a playlist of songs from musicals. It always makes me happy. If you're having a bad day just sit and listen to your favourite songs. Hopefully that will improve your mood a little. 2. Go for a walk When you have a bad day then all you want to do is curl up in a ball in bed all day. However, the best thing to do when you're feeling low is to get out of the...

I don't usually vent on this blog but I needed to get these thoughts out and why not just share them on my blog. I have a problem with Valentines Day. I get it's the day of love and it must be nice if you actually have a partner to share it with or even friends to share it with. What about the rest of us though? The singles, the lonely people who feel they will never find love or are too shy to even meet new people. Who've had their heartbroken and are afraid to fall in love again? What about us? Why is there not a day to celebrate being single and being alone? Where's that day? The only reason it's annoying to me is all the advertisements and displays in the shops filled with gifts for loved ones. Don't get me wrong. I'd happily buy myself a box of chocolates and most valentines day, I just watch movies, order takeaway and eat chocolate. I just spend it as a day to love myself and do things I love. Yet there's no section in the Valentines display...

Sometimes in life it can be hard to be happy. Things can easily bring people down especially people with low self esteem, no body confidence and even people with very little friends. Now like a very wise old man once said 'Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if only one remembers to turn on the light.'  Which is very true. Happiness can be found even when you're at your lowest point. I'm going to share with you some tips on how to be happy. 1. It's your choice This may be kind of obvious but it's up to you whether or not your happy. Sure we're allowed for things to get us down. That's life. It can be a b***h sometimes. But it's up to us on how we deal with it, move on and be happy again. 2. Don't let the haters bring you down In life we are going to have some haters. Let me just tell you that those haters are jealous of you because you are amazing and happy. They envy that. They envy the fact that you're happy ...

I was doing a lot of thinking recently and there has been a lot of changes and things happening around the world. Examples include the EU Referendum and killings and shootings going on in America as well as other things like that. It just kind of puts a lot of perspective about life when you hear stuff on news and you see all these protests and negative stuff going around about politicians and different cultures. It makes you think about your own life and how lucky some of us are to live the life we do. I feel lucky that our police force aren't so brutal and that we have laws against gun control. I mean I feel lucky you don't hear as much about shootings in the UK than in America and that we have tight laws on it, On a lighter side though it is things like that which put our lives in perspective and maybe even motivate us do something with our lives because as the saying goes 'Life is short' and you don't even know what it'll bring you the next day. Jus...

We all have a song that we like to listen to for when we're feeling down in the dumps and usually that song will make us feel somewhat better. Well, recently I found one particular song that made me feel so much better. It helped for when I was feeling upset, alone, anxious or even nervous. I listen to it before going to a lecture.  Here it is. It's called Stronger from the musical Finding Neverland. I have not seen this musical but I watched this song on YouTube being performed live at the Tony Awards. I thought it was amazing. I felt like I related to the lyrics so much. I love it so much. It's quite possibly my new favourite song. If I was you I'd give this song a listen and look up the lyrics online because it may make you feel better and relate to you just like it did to me. I hope you enjoyed this little post and the recommendation. I'm not associated with this music or the songs. I just love this song and wanted to share how much i...

Feeling alone can really suck and make you bring yourself down. It can also make you feel really insecure and anxious about what people might be thinking of you. Lately, I've been doing this a lot. Even before a lecture I have this knot in the pit of my stomach and suddenly I'm just scared. I keep thinking of scenarios that might happen. Especially when I think I haven't done any research or started an assignment and just think the lecturer will yell at me in front of everyone. Yeah. That really sucks. However, thankfully I'm wrong and most of the time it turns out better than expected. Then I just laugh (mentally not out loud) about how I wrong I was and then I just feel loads better. Anyway, back to the topic of being alone. It sucks. Everyone knows that and everyone feels it. It's okay to be alone. You can still be happy while being alone. Trust me I know. Most of the time I like being alone because I can do things I want to do without worrying a...